The big goodbye

I can't quite remember when we first gave The Bean a dummy to sleep with, but it has been a fantastic tool and she has been a fantastic sleeper. When she was still small enough to sleep in my arms, popping a dummy in her mouth was her cue to sleep and she would snuggle up and drift off no matter where we were—cinema, café, friend’s house. Apart from giving it to her as a 'treat' on flights the dummy hasn't really left her bed and has been used exclusively for sleep. 

New life

One definite positive of our little photography business chugging along is that I am being forced to drive places that I wouldn’t usually drive. There are still certain roads and routes that I won’t travel, but I have recently driven to some places that were definitely out of my comfort zone. And guess what? I survived.

Fear and love

As I enter my third trimester (eeep!) my anxiety about what lies ahead is slowly but surely starting to build. Like the first time around, my anxiety is less about having a baby than having a baby—experiencing labour and birth once before has not really eased any fears and doubts that I had before (except that I am now absolutely certain that a hospital is where I want to be). 

By the time I went into labour with The Bean I felt more excitement and confidence than fear and doubt. Right at this moment I feel I am lacking whatever it is I need to bring a new baby into the world with a mindset of strength and peace.